Greetings and Salutations

I'mmmm baaack! That's right beyotch's!

It's been a whirwind few months and I am back, quite possibly better than ever. There's too much to even blog about so maybe I write the shortened version? Let's see how that works.

I had an AMAZING summer in New Jersey. Being out there, in the burbs, I finally felt at home and I finally felt some peace. It did wonders for my soul (that's right my actual soul) to just be away and not have to be connected to any of the old B.S. I feel like a completely different person.

Working at camp was a great experience. It definitely had it's moments, both good and bad, and I made it through. I met some great people, managed to have fun, got to have the college experience via Drew University and Townhouse number 12. I got to live in a dorm! Woot! I even enjoyed some good summer romances and came to the realization that it's so good for me to only date people under 25. How refreshing. Maybe that's because some part of me still feels like I'm 21. Nothing wrong with that, right? It's totally acceptable to sneak around, leave my lover's aunt's house at 5 in the morning to get to camp on time, and maybe get a $180 ticket at 1:45 a.m. on a Monday night because I was too love stoned to realize that a flashing red light means you actually have to stop. Things definitely heated up about half way through the summer and life got exciting again.

There was my core 4, the group I always hung out with at camp. We had some good staples like Pizza Tuesdays at Main Street Subs and Secret Burrito Fridays at Tito's in Summit. And so what if I say things like "JK". It's all good. Please bare with me.

Once camp was done, I packed up my dormroom like a college student, went back home and immediately left to go on a cruise with my mom for one week. That was good times. I got to just lay in the sun, listen to music, read. Do all the things I didn't get to do for the previous 9 weeks. Plus I got to spend some quality time with my mom. We had some good laughs.

I guess now I'm just trying to adjust to my real life again. I'm trying to keep my Jersey romance and friendships going but it's hard. The distance is difficult and the money aspect of it. It costs $30 in tolls every time I want to see them and vice versa. We've been seeing each other every weekend now but some how I think that's going to fade. There's always next summer I guess.

I'm going to try to do more concerts. I am missing live music big time. Last week I saw Paolo Nutini. If you don't know him, check him out.

There has been some difficult stuff this summer too. My friend's brother passed away in the Deutsche Bank fire on August 18th. That was definitely a low point. It was probably the saddest wake I have ever been to. And knowing your friend is in so much pain and not knowing how to help or what to say is just really hard.

I found out that the axis of evil is getting married. And really I am not that upset. I am in such a good place that I can't even get emotional about it. I almost feel like something is wrong with me and I should be more upset. But I'm really over it and I hope everyone is happy. It's of course hard news to have to hear but emotionally I am solid.

I also had to sever another friendship which sucks. Someone I really cared for and dated but we are just in different places in life so it's the best thing I guess. It just stinks to have to lose a good friend and someone that you are connected with. It's hard to separate the feelings of friendship and romantic feelings and I get that. It's hard to be one or the other once you've already had that relationship. I'm sad about it but again, not too broken up because the growth I've had has just put me in a place where I'm emotionally mature. Maybe too much so. Sometimes I feel like I'm getting more like a man. Don't know if that's good or bad.

I guess that's really all for now minus lots of details. I think I'm gonna be ok though.