That Time of Year

It's that time of year...



Where work is crazy and I live, sleep, breathe OASIS.



Where I have insomnia and wake up at 5:30 a.m. EVERY DAY



Where the days are long, nights short. Everything is beautiful and green yet I have no time to see it or appreciate it.

Things are happening quick. I'm going out to Jersey in 17 days to tackle being Operations Director. Scary and exciting all at the same time.

I'm staying in Park Slope right now, dogsitting for two cocker spaniels. What I've learned about park slope is that you must have at least one child and one dog to live here. It's a great and beautiful neighborhood. But I'm clearly not eligible.

I've been reading some Zen literature lately in an effort to better myself mentally. It's working. A lot of it has to do with embracing the moment and not focusing on the past or the future. It's also about accepting things the way they are and appreciating things the way they are. And it focuses on re-training your brain to think in a certain way. I feel good about it and about life. And while I'm super stressed and ready to break, I can find my happy place.

Things are changing on a lot of levels and I think it's going to be a good thing. I guess that's really all I can say. The dating scene is null and void right now. I tried things out with Vinny but it was clearly a mistake. He seems to be a bit too sensitive, high maintenance, and downright crazy. He felt I wasn't committed enough and told me he didn't need any more "friends" at the moment. How's that for jumping from zero to psycho in 21 days without even letting us give it a fair shot? Granted, things are hard for me to commit to right now as I'm leaving and busy at work beyond belief. But I could have found a way to make it work if he didn't go completely ape shit on me and tell me that his feelings count, mine don't, and that's that. WHEW. Glad I escaped that one in tact.

But I'm not stressing. It was actually laughable and I had a hard time not cracking up in his face. Apparently this was very serious to him and I didn't want to demean that by laughing. So I let him go off on me for a good 20 minutes and then we hung up. It was great. And I'm great.

That's all for now. Gotta finish my dinner.